My New Desicion

Last night I've thinked about my life, my love and how is it goin to be...
These week has become the weakest point of my life. I've never been like this before...
Maybe it's true that I'm a dependent person, but i've never been depent like these on somebody before.

I realize that i've took myself so far from being myself. I realize that i've change to somebody else that i don't even know who the hell she is...
It is a sad reality for me... But thanks God I can open my eyes widely this time.

Now it's time for me to say :
1. Finished my school
2. Get more appropriate study
3. Find a real job (my dream is becoming a UN volunteer)
4. Still being a good housewife for my husband and my childrens (even I'm not married to anyman yet)

I mean, it's oke to be a wife (that's a woman's destiny), but it doesn't mean that you have to change!!! You just have to be yourself!!! Still going through your dreams!!!
And it makes me feel better because it turned me back to the real I AM. The real ISMI.
I'm so young!!! (i'm only 24th years old this April)
I'm fresh, smart and cheerfull!!!
I still want to and can do alot of things!!!
My future is wide open in front of me!!!